It's been so long!!!
I will be honest here... I felt like I was writing this blog for other people, rather than expressing myself for the sake of enjoying a creative outlet (aka the reason why I first started blogging in the first place). It's so easy to get caught up in promotion, in page views, in "likes"....you name it. So I decided, that's it. No more. I'm done with blogging. But then I thought... wait. Blogging doesn't have to be some huge money making thing that everyone makes it out to be. I can just share my thoughts. I don't need to have amazing, professionally photoshopped pictures. I don't even need anyone to read this other than myself (!!!) even though of course it still absolutely means the world to me that you're reading this right now. Like, omg I'm truly so honored that you care, haha! *hugs all arounddd* If you ever look to external validation for the things that you do, ultimately, your level of passion for the act will decline steadily, making you wonder why you even continue. So I'm looking inward, towards my inner validation now, and this is good enough for me! <3
ALSOOO vlogging/YouTube has become huge and I'm planning on making vlogs to put on here, but I'm still apprehensive about using YouTube. I mean, why open yourself up to negative commentary like that? I'd LOVE to have a makeup/beauty channel. But I don't want to deal with negative comments about my looks, or my voice, or any of the other things that I've seen people comment negatively on for others. I've wanted to do makeup product reviews for so long, but I'm afraid of the backlash for it! Eeeek! I know that you can totally just ignore comments and such, so maybe I'll just go for it. Like, at the same time, I feel like makeup videos are more fun to make than just posting about it because you can see it in action, so to say! We'll see! As always, add me on Snapchat: buhhrook to see little mini vlog-style videos + pics! :D
In terms of personal growth, WOWWW! I've grown SO much. I've changed SO much. I've learned SO much. Stay tuned. More coming your way soon.